Today while I was at work I realized how much I enjoyed looking over panos. I then realized how much I like my job. It is a lot of “on your feet” work, but its pretty cool. Yesterday I resurrected a short story I wrote a few years back. Since writing that piece, I have grown as a writer, so I had no idea what this piece actually looked like. I was hesitant to send it to my editor, but I did and she liked it. I am forced to read it again and make some changes. Glossing over it I noticed some “winks” placed in the middle of the story. Winks are a private joke between people and placed in someones writing. I am nervous to read it because I was still married when I wrote it andI have no idea what I was going through at that time in my life. I am sort of afraid to discover things about me I just do not want to know.
Any who..seeing these winks, made me think of “Jake” the guy I was most recently engaged to. Before he came into my life I was figuring out who I was, at a snails pace, but I was doing it. Now I am 2 broken hearts into this life and I am ready to press the fast forward button to self discovery. I love to write, and I am fairly good at it. I am funny..only a very select few know I did stand up at open mic night here in Austin. I am a great mom, huge supporter of the ones I love, and in general a great person. I have worked through a few things I needed to work on and I know I am a work in progress. So it is time for me to embrace Kelly and love her unconditionally instead of a man who quite frankly never deserved me.
So I am going to fix up my short story and I am going to submit it like crazy. Then I am going to write 100 more and do the same. It is who I am and I love that about me. At this point there is no one and nothing that can stop me from living my best version on me. No one can hurt me and no one can change me ever again. I am a bad ass and it is time to prove it to myself….0 to 100 real quick…..