Kelly Smith~Signs in the Rear View Mirror. Intro to a Weekly Series…

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Why is it you can see things so clearly while looking in the rear view mirror? Why is it you can’t see what is going on in front of your face, but it is clear as day when looking back on it? I have no answer for you, but I have a lot of experience with this. I have been looking back on the past five years a lot lately. Those past years have been sitting heavily on my mind a lot lately. They have weighed me down. I have been trying to figure out why.

As I have been living my life, breezing through my days, I have seen signs. Number signs. I have been seeing the three digits that have reminded me of him a lot lately, 916. At first, I thought it was a coincidence, but then I began to see the sequence more and more. At…

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Kelly Smith~Signs in the Rear View Mirror~ Season One Finale…

Even after the cavalcade of red flags marched in and made themselves comfortable in my life, I chose to move forward in the relationship with Jake. Each morning, I made sure those red flags ate breakfast and had a lunch packed for the day. I took good care of those warnings and I was prepared to defend the relationship if ever a questions was raised. I made sure that the omnipresent feeling in my gut (of which I never listened to) was buried deep within, covered by layers of guilt, codependency, depression and justification. This constant need to validate my relationship was more for me than anyone else… par for the course when dealing with an empath. Seven months into this toxic relationship, Jake proposed. He moved to Texas and soon after, he began an affair with his co worker. It would be months before I knew what was happening. His manipulation, cheating and abuse led me down a twisted spiral of anxiety and pain which eventually drove me into the arms of a recovery program that changed my entire life.

I am taking a break to prepare myself for season 2. I have to process the resurrection of old wounds and exposing my relationship in this way. I want to thank all of you for your unconditional support. I have never felt more loved and supported. Season 2 is underway and will be released in late March.

Thank you.

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